Lost - 8Ball

As the autumn leaves fell in the month of October

I found myself chiefin hay and every day never sober

Got Hen drippin down my chin and smoke in my lungs

Pullin hellafied hoes with my devilish tongue

Silk tailor made, I don’t need yo name on my back

Got these bitches' mind addicted to this shit like it was crack

I went from good to bad, bad to worse to evil

Never thought I’d see myself not trustin my own people

Right up under my nose in the form of niggas and hoes

I’m playin by the rules cause that’s all I ever been told

An eye for an eye, do unto others as they do you

Turn the other cheek and watch how many motherfuckers do you

Deceivin, got a nigga believin while they thievin

Tryina break even, a nigga damn near stopped breathin

Scared for my son’s life, mine is already at the end

Tryina make a change so they don’t have to go where I done been

A thin line between sin and what’s right

Open my heart to God and hope that I get touched right

I just might take a life, stop breath, bring death

To all in my vicinity until there is just he left

I been searching all this time

Tryina my best to find my way

Runnin round tryina chase this money

Takin me around the world in a day

Blowin smoke all up my nose

Gettin in and out my clothes

Foolin round with midnight hoes

Man, that’s just the way life goes

It’s hard to run, tabacco from them blunts got me winded

Sanity has ended, I’m not where I pretended

To be, a millennium away from reality

As far as the eye can see, there is no one but me

Ruins from a past life, as far back as last night

Burn like witchcraft, givin my path plenty light

I close my eyes, I cannot believe what I’m seein

Evil demons posin like they human beings

Invade my trip, them bitches came equipped

With banana peels, tryina make a pimp nigga slip

Some have no lips, some have no eyes

And it’s strange how that never stopped the lies or the spies

From clutterin, damn near smotherin, always hoverin above me

Masked face, actin like they love me

Always wanna judge me, player, that ain’t for you to do

Cause one day higher powers got somethin for me and you

I close my eyes and try to imagine I’m somewhere else

Other than this hell we call Earth, from birth to death

Settin my mind free chemically helps me some

Oz.'s of trees enter me until my spirit is numb

Oral inhalation, halucinogenic sedation

Illegal medication force me into hibernation

Now my thoughts seem as vivid as a rainbow

I’m visited by an angel who came to make my pain go

On the outside it’s all peaches and cream

In my mind I hear screams from horrible dreams

Flashbacks of some shit I wish I could forget

On the verge of havin a fit, not afraid to admit

I’m lost, and I don’t know which way to go

I don’t know who I can call that can save me, so

I’m gonna drop to my knees and ask to be forgiven

And pray for another way for me to be livin

Man, I’m lost and I don’t know which way to go

I don’t know who I can call that can save me, so

I’m gonna drop to my knees and ask to be forgiven

And pray for another way for me to be livin