All I Can Do Is Hate You - Alexander Biggs

I want you to love me

‘til all I can do is hate you

To kiss me til you bruise me

To touch me til it scars

And I want you to hold me

Til my mind has eroded

Til all my bones are broken

Til everything goes dark

To suck my blood and fill me up

With memories of you

I want you to fuck me

Til I can’t say your name

For fear that it will crush me underneath it’s tiring weight

I want you to wear me out

Just like you wear my clothes

To sew your smell into my sheets

To wreck the scent of roses

And I want to be there

Until I hate my birthday

‘Cause I can’t stand one more day

Growing old without you

To hold me til you drop me

Just like a screaming baby

To love til we get lazy

And lay down on the floor

Til I forget the best bits

And only see the rest

As long as you’re able

Until I get stale

Before I admit

That it’s better to quit

Before I admit

That it’s just not working

I want you to love me

Til everything is hurting

To alcohol stops working

Til everything is numb

I want you to love me

Til nothing else seems worth it

Til living is a burden

Underneath your thumb

To kiss my head

Sweet angel of death

And tuck me into bed