Hold Back - Allison Crowe

A collection of truths

Strategically placed

A horde of mysteries and

Some fears faced

A raging battle under

Calm and serene

Often saying what I think

But not often what I mean

I need to see

Reality so I

Know that it’s not just a dream

And I lay my cards out

For everyone

But I never am quite what I seem

I hold back

Take hold of dares

As though you’re almost done

As if it’s the last thing that you’ll ever do

And I will always run because

A misguided guide I am

An ignorant lead

I never know what I want

But I’ll tell you exactly what I need

And I see you smile

And it makes me nervous

And while I’m laughing the truth is

I don’t know how to do this

I have no idea of what’s okay

No matter who you are

But you’ll never get to know

Because I’ll never get that far