Subconscious - Ani DiFranco

On one hand, I’m walking

The way that I do

Looking like I’m lost in thought

But I’m looking for you

It’s so subconscious

The way that I feel

Too bad my subconscious life

Is the more real

And I ain’t in the best shape

That I’ve ever been in

But I know where I’m going

It ain’t where I’ve been

I know where I’m going

And it ain’t where I’ve been

Some kind of anxiety

Has gotten hold of my heart

And I just wanna run home

When I feel it start

Plastic bottles of water

Sealed windows, forced air

And gazillions of cell phones

Beaming through my hair

And I ain’t in the best shape

That I’ve ever been in

But I know where I’m going

And it ain’t where I’ve been

I know where I’m going

And it ain’t where I’ve been

Tossing and turning

Between sleepless dreams

And I’m poised on the edge of

What it all means

So I turn my back

And I spread my arms wide

And I let myself fall in

Way deep inside

And I ain’t in the best shape

That I’ve ever been in

But I know where I’m going

And it ain’t where I’ve been

I know where I’m going

And it ain’t where I’ve been