Carousel - ATMOSPHERE, Nikki Jean

I want my up as steady as my down

When I, I, I

I want my cup as heavy as my crown

When I, I, I

Look in the mirror, I’m so glad I found a friend

When I come around again

I want my up steady as my down

My cup heavy as my crown when

When I come around

She told me to come inside and get out of the raindrops

And stop living your life like a day job

I’m tryna make this feel like a holiday

It’s a complicated celebration nowadays

Gotta take it any way we can acquire it

With consideration to our time and our environment

Trying to find a silver lining with yourself included

It’s why we play these records like ther’s keys in the music

It could be as simpl as it’s supposed to be

If only what they told me was actually what they showed me

Hope the kids get a chance to tell a brand new story

But in the meantime, please don’t stand so close to me

She says she never loved the police

That’s when I knew I wanted to protect myself from her sting

And I don’t know what to think, but now I’m trying to redeem

For every time I didn’t seem to keep my eye in your team

And I can be as careless as a dream

But as careful as the breeze carry seeds from the trees and

Spread 'em 'cross the field until they too little to see

Until they barely just a ripple in the sea

Specifically, I’m free to be stressed

And worried 'bout whatever sequence of events and experiences

I’m feeling incomplete and let me get this release

I believe that I need some relief

I disappear into the night like a what?

I was a horrible thief, forgot to steal anything

I’m on the carousel tryna take care of myself

We can laugh, we can sing, I’ll be back next spring

On the carousel tryna take care of ourself

I’m as present at the callus underneath that ring

You on the carousel tryna take care of yourself

I appreciate the challenge, but these lights ain’t green

On the carousel tryna take care of myself