Map Reader (A Monthly Conversation) - Bad Luck.

I’ve counted the miles, it isn’t so bad

(But any stale thought could rot its way in your head)

Sometimes I feel like

(She knows you better than you know yourself, I get it)

But this one’s different

(Yeah I know)

It’s just not that simple

(But I’ve heard it before)

(And all due respect, you cover up your fear of loneliness)

I just needed the sound of a voice

Why can’t I just get by?

(Well you can’t get by with a)

(Ghost)

Commitment, at best, was my worst idea yet

(You throw yourself through slightly open doors and then you’re stuck)

How would you know

(I saw it not too long ago, you broke in and just walked off)

(And I’ve made my own mistakes)

And here’s the thing, since you’ve settled down are you settling?

(I think that I know my mistakes)

She’s just not like everyone

You just don’t know everything

I was trying to drown out the noise

I just wanted to feel alive

(You'll never feel alive from a)

(Ghost)

If you don’t listen you could never get it

You don’t listen so you just don’t get it

(Fuck you, fuck you, you can’t tell me you’re not full of shit)

Shit

(If she’s what helps you sleep, and 3 AM phone calls are what you need

to help you get, through everyday that you breathe,

and feel so stretched thin that your organs are out on the floor again)

It’s not like there is certainty (in every dream that) I depict of her,

masturbation is a curse

I guess we’ll have to wait and see, until then

(All that we can say is fuck it)