Emo Friends - Bruising

i could be your desert baby

barefoot in the bathroom

i could try and make you breakfast

so that you feel better

the weather

never changes when i want

it’s been so many months

the feeling like we’re both wanting to pop

only when i’m in the street

i’m running to get home

so i can wait for you to call

seven at my door

i feel alarmed

when i’m with you

when i kiss you

i feel part of myself slowly slip away

snow falls

but it doesn’t settle

how long until the end of winter?

the end of forever?

i want to feel again.

lorna wrote me a sweet letter

asking how i was

i said i’m working hard and i am

drinking lots of coffee

but you’re so heavy

i didn’t tell him what you did

i feel just like a kid

can’t tell the things apart from what they’ve been.

maybe just because it’s cold

we feel we’re getting old

is nineteen years too long to be alive?