Portraits of Eyes - Cloud Boat

each one filled me with closed eyes and falling

like a key for the lock to my mouth

every night seemed like an end to the dreaming

and the wait…

even time screamed like the nausea ending

but sometimes the sickness came back

this every day was like a new kind of crawling along

i went in search of peace of mind

and my family’s eyes

imagine all the space i’d find…

please don’t cry if i ask

the way to the rope my love

i’m not gonna tie any knots

i just need you to hold on while i go down

i’ve started to wander outside of the walls

and map out the darkness around

the first page of my map is in colour

a scrapbook for all that i love

the second page of my map is all selfish desires

and looks like the work of a child

nobody needs to know the rest of my country

i see all i need and it’s mine

nobody needs to know that i can’t breathe or love