Dilemma - Dark Half

I’m schizophrenic hearing voices in my head

Been talking with the dead

So it don’t matter what you said

Some things will never change

Just put me in the grave

Since age is Thirteen been a screwed up

Got a problem with my life, make a new cut

My mother screaming as I try jumping out the whip

My brother crying, cause the older brother loosin it

Throw me to the mental hospital, Saint Luis

Force fed, pills stare that was almost my youth

At the young age I always picked on, beat up

Kicked in the face always stepped on

People always laughing at the reject

Became the funny guy and gain you respect

At Eighteen alcohol became my best friend

And in no time I was back in the ward again

Twenty three and I still feel like giving up

Malcom really sorry that we didn’t get the talk enough

I was too hard headed till that day came

You may be gone, but your memory will still remain

My whole life I just wanted to die

Been tryin to kill myself since the age nine

Why is happiness is so hard to find

And how can suicide ever crossed my mind?

Time after time I wanna cock the nine

Blow my brains out, and leave my troubles behind

I’m blind to the fact that everybody hates me

Even my own mother thinks that I’m crazy

But ain’t no fucking pill gonna save me

I bring back whats left of my sanity

I see your envy has made you an enemy

With the devil face, and a heart full of jelousy

So here I walk down this road

Cold and alone with no place to call home

I quess I’m on my own but I did it to myself

Maybe these pills will start to help