How Many Times - Diathra

I’ve had enough, and I’m feeling a little beat

I don’t know what the future holds for me

But I tell myself I don’t give a damn

'Cause my life is in pieces and I forgot who I am

I can’t lose myself, kill my pride

For the things I took for granted at my side

But they still expect me to pay the cost

Can’t keep blaming myself for the love that I’ve lost

How many times will I have to go

Through this vicious circle, again and again?

How many times before I know

This road will lead to the same bitter pain?

The sweetness of lies and the sourness of the truth

Cruel betrayals and love’s burning shame

And/ how many times, from beginning to end

Will I have to play these silly games?

Because I’m so frail

They say I’m/ destined for hell

Why then am I so blind

Searching for heaven heaven divine?

Did love’s redemption redemption fail?

What’s the source source of my strife?

What’s the price for my life?

The wrong, the right, a penny, or fortune?

But for me, the lines are blurred

For pain is my portion