I'm Not Ready - Donna Missal

One more distraction to keep me from

Laying in the wake of my own destruction

And I wanted to believe that I’m better but I’m not

So it’s one more temporary love illusion

I don’t want to get in too deep

Making these promises I won’t keep

Just hold myself down steady

And hope I can sleep

When I dive

Into another bed

I’m so empty inside

Filling up on regret

If I’m honest with myself

I’m still terrified at best

I tried

I’ll admit

I’m not ready

Saw my reflection in someone

Couldn’t see it coming but I lost who I was

And I wanted to believe I was better off back then

But there’s a crack in the mirror and it left me broken

I don’t want to get in too deep

Making these promises I won’t keep

Just hold myself down steady

And hope I can sleep

When I dive

Into another bed

I’m so empty inside

Filling up on regret

If I’m honest with myself

I’m still terrified at best

I tried

I’ll admit

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I don’t want to get in too deep

Making these promises I won’t keep

Just hold myself down steady

Hope I can sleep

When I dive

Into another bed

I’m so empty inside

Filling up on regret

If I’m honest with myself

I’m still terrified at best

I tried

I’ll admit

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready

I’m not ready