Save Yourself - Ekoh

And I know you think you know me, but you don’t know where I’ve been

I’m a mess, what’s happiness when you just fuck it up again?

I might lose my way

I might not come back

I know you try to stay to help

But go and save yourself

This ain’t a way to be livin' I get it

Didn’t know bad it was until you actually said it

Breakin' down but tellin' everyone I’m fine

I know I promised I would talk before I crossed that line again but didn’t

I guess that’s just the way my head works

Open up another couple scars before you mend yours

I don’t learn from watching others crash I gotta wreck first

Cuz I don’t think that love is really love until you get hurt, yea

And I know what you think

Said its hard to love me when I don’t love myself and I’m on the brink

Of trading in this sobriety for a fuck drink

And I don’t wanna talk about it till we’re bout to to sink, yea

Maybe I just need a day off

Maybe I’m just more fuck comfortable in the chaos

You say you love me so you stay on

Invested all your time and wonder when it’s gonna payoff, huh?

I know you think you know me, but you don’t know where I’ve been

I’m a mess, what’s happiness when you just fuck it up again?

I might lose my way

I might not come back

I know you try to stay to help

But go and save yourself

So afraid of the failure that now I’m barely livin'

Spent a lifetime of working with nothin' left to give it

Lookin' back at the things we been through and feel I miss it

I been running forever I don’t know how you didn’t

When you’re sitting right next to me, don’t know where I go

I’m in my head with these songs and pick apart every note

These insecurities killing me but I never show

The things I’m thinking are probably worse than you’ll ever know, yea

We been feeling like we can’t move

Same house, same walls, but a different view

Spending time avoiding this inconvenient truth

I got some problems and I’m sick of trying to blame you

Cuz I feel

Like I been

On my own

In my head

The light goes

And I see

You fall when standing beside me

And every night I lie awake, tryin' to fight but everyday I’m feeling less

Feeling less like me…

Yea

Still waiting for me to open up

She ain’t cheating, just fantasizing bout who I was

Fell in love with this image that I portray but know it ain’t a lie

Its who I want to be at the end of the day

I know the feelings and the thoughts will keep me down

Depression and anxiety, hanging inside the clouds

No matter where I go they keep following me around

And you think that one day I can make it out

I know you think you know me, but you don’t know where I’ve been

I’m a mess, what’s happiness when you just fuck it up again?

I might lose my way

I might not come back

I know you try to stay to help

But go and save yourself…

Go and save yourself