Goodbye - Emilie Autumn

And so I’ve said too much

And not enough

And so the play is finally at an end

You never had the care

To call my bluff

And so I must be pleased

To be your friend

But what then was the purpose of this game?

I never really had a chance to win

It’s true

I rather like who I became

But what am I to do with who I’ve been?

For I may wish to meet myself someday

Among the ashes of a fire long dead

To see my shadow there and hear it say

That it was happy with the life it lead

What emptiness awaits me?

This I fear

Far more than any peril I might face

My purpose in this world became less clear

When you were taken from your cherished place

Within my wishing heart

And went your way

So willingly it almost makes me ill

To think it never crossed your mind to stay

Pushes the dagger deep

Completes the kill

And yet how much of this was done by me?

Had I the courage would you still have flown?

How sad to think this was not destiny

But my mistake

Yet how could I have known?

Now here is my dilemma

As it seems

Do I accept the score that fate has set

And calmly watch the passing of my dreams

Or do I dare to place

Another bet

That where the curtain falls

Another rises

If I am wrong then strike me for my sins

But I believe our acts and thin disguises

Were but a prologue to what now begins…