Self / Destruct - Fault Lines

I just want to sleep for a whole week.

Pinned to the sheets.

I’m slave to what I chose to be..

It’s a shame that I feel so free.

Need another pill.

Need another clip.

Need another glass.

Need another hit.

The thought of quitting just makes me sick.

It’s not clear and I can’t get it out of my head.

No!

Can’t get them out of my head.

It gets under my skin.

I’m giving up giving up.

I’ve been trying my best, but I can’t seem to make this right.

I won’t let go

you’ll never know what’s in my mind.

(Well here I am) There you are.

Thought there’d be more to this than these meaningless words and scars.

But I was wrong.

Tell me

why I’m in this unforgiving place

I know I’ve been guilty every time.

I’ll take

the blame for all the moments that I wasted.

Wasted all my life.

Think too little, feel too much.

I try to push it out, try to push it out,

but it’ll never be enough.

Tell me how much greener the grass is

on the other side.

Quit making this harder than it needs to be.

I’m losing my patience with my reality.

With my reality.

I’m giving up giving up.

I’ve been trying my best, but I can’t seem to make this right.

I won’t let go

you’ll never know what’s in my mind.

(Well here I am) There you are.

Thought there’d be more to this than these meaningless words and scars.

But I was wrong.

Tell me

why I’m in this unforgiving place

I know I’ve been guilty every time.

I’ll take

the blame for all the moments that I wasted.

Wasted all my life.

I thought I told you,

that this would happen.

You’ve got a head filled with doubt,

now you can’t find a way out.

I thought I told you,

that this would happen.

Sick of this shit gotta cut the cord right now.

Self induce sleep like I always do.

I never wanted to

let down all my friends and family.

Please stay away from me;

I have the worst intentions.

I’ve tried to take my life,

but the devil keeps me here,

because I’m serving him somehow.

Relieve me.

Relieve me, please.

I’m fucking desperate, and I just want to leave.

(Tell me

why I’m in this unforgiving place

I know I’ve been guilty every time.)

Tell me

why I’m in this unforgiving place

I know I’ve been guilty every time.

I’ll take

the blame for all the moments that I wasted.

Wasted all my life.