Let Alone - Hazing

I’m drowning in questions

You choked up and left them to sink

I was so stupid to think

That i knew how you felt

I’m a fuck up, i’m selfish, i’m wrong

I think i knew all along

That you needed my help

And i needed yours too

But three years stand between us

And all i can do

Is disguise my emotions

And drown in the ocean of you

I’m addicted to this shade of blue

And i wonder

How you lived beneath the waves for so long

Pull me under

With every lonely second you’ve been gone

I’m a ghost here

That doesn’t seem to scare me anymore

Is the coast clear

Or will i find your body on the shore

You are my lullaby

You are the tears i cry

You are the reason it’s so hard to say goodbye

You are the smoke i breathe

You are the webs i weave

You are the heart i’ve been hiding beneath my sleeve

You are the words i write

You are my guiding light

You are the silence that keeps me awake at night

You are my teething ring

You are the first of spring

You are the reason it hurts every time i sing

Come home

I’m so alone

I’m trapped underwater

The waves make it harder to breathe

And leave me lifeless beneath

All the dreams that i lost

Now i’m weighing the cost of my spite

I hope i see you tonight

When i lose my perception

To death or to sleep

Just to tell your reflection

You’re all that i need

But i know you won’t hear me

No matter how clearly i speak

The water’s vast and the future is bleak