He Without Sin Ii) Heels of the Hands - Hellions

I thought I was a bad person

I was a dirty little girl

I never once blamed the priest

I hated myself

I was violated

I was a 9/10 year old kid

Thinking he’s committed the worst sin in the world

I hated myself because of what happened

He’s gonna like this kid

He told me, every time my life

There’s pretty much immediately self blame, self guilt

And I turned inward, I hated myself

I would do everything, everything

I was very confused

All my life I have struggled with intimacy

To seek out and find this priest, to beg him for forgiveness

As I was convinced that this was the best thing

This is what happens when people love each other

Whether or not he was smart

This is love this is natural this is normal

I didn’t love myself for it

I didn’t think anyone would love me

It wasn’t his fault, it was mine