The Plague - Jenny Hval

I don’t know who I am

I have never really truly

Never truly really

Never really loved

I’ve never really loved

I’ve never truly really loved

In memory of

The sea took him

Too young to die

Mysterious circumstances

I’ve never really loved a dog

I’ve never really loved a dog

I’ve never really loved it

Last night I took my birth control with rosé

While you were sleeping, I was dreaming that

You were sleeping

You were living a life and I was living as a…

Oh my God!

Shit!

Thank God!

Keep that birth, under control!

It’s still dawn, but the sun is rising

Shapes are appearing

And colours are slowly being painted onto the cars

In the parking lot and on her internal organs

(The colours are dancing

And you’re dancing along)

Revolution is debt!

What you know is coming

Useless algorithms!

But what it is

Must

Maybe

Near human

I must be near human

Blood

Maybe

Yes

Blood

Smells like under moss

Down in the deep

Underwater light

I lay down on the rim of the canyon, and open my hand

I imagine I am dropping ashes of myself into the void

I pull my hand back, afraid that I have lost you in the offering