Not Jessica, I'm Jessie - Jessie Paege

Moved out alone at 16

It wasn’t legal

No one cared to tell me

Yet I made it through

Took my body wasting away to realize

Blood may be thick

But the water of the womb is weak

17 a claim to my life

Left me in the hospital

A cry for help

Scared of my mom every night

But I couldn’t question it

My mouth was sealed shut

A drink in hers

I came back

To be the hero I never had

But they just hurt me again

I took the (sic)k

Out of Jessica

And I chose Jessie

Never meant to be born

So I got a new life

I’m not Jessica

I said I’m Jessie

My body

My voice

My story

My life

They’ve never been yours

(Ooo)

I’m scared whenever the door creaks

Who will it be?

Did you give life to me or take it from me?

All this time

Maybe I wasn’t shy

Maybe you weren’t listening

Your money can’t buy you

Accountability

Your paper means nothing to me (nothing to me)

Can’t buy me a new rug

To sweep your mess under

I won’t keep my lips shut

Before I could speak, I was born into debt

You should have paid that off

My debt comes with a name

That I don’t claim

And I’m writing it off

Why did I come back?

To be the hero I never had

But they just hurt me again

I took the (sic)k

Out of Jessica

And I chose Jessie

Never meant to be born

So I got a new life

I’m not Jessica

I said I’m Jessie

My body

My voice

My story

My life

They’ve never been yours

Why did I come back?

To be the hero I never had

But they just hurt me again

I took the (sic)k

Out of Jessica

And I chose Jessie

Never meant to be born

So I got a new life

I’m not Jessica

I said I’m Jessie

My body

My voice

My story

My life

They’ve never been yours

As I say goodbye I hope that you are listening

Rebuild my kingdom that didn’t want war

As I greet the world as a new me

I say I’m not Jessica

I’m Jessie