Homunculus - John Cameron Mitchell

I’m the mold on your bread

The prayer bruise on your head

The pause in the joke

That makes you cry til you choke

As a lover I’m unsurpassed

But I come first and you go last

No rival comes above me

I will fuck you til you love me

The end is nigh

And so am I

I am free

To be there when you die

I’ll suck on your memories

Learn from your mistakes

Curate the nightmares

That keep you awake

I will text from upstairs

Just to say you’re pretty

May you live to see

My love turn to pity

I hate when you cry

So dry your eyes

I am free

To be there when you die

I will eat the sins

Pressed into your flesh

I will empty and embalm

I will bathe and bless

Just upload your heartache

Onto my soft drive

We will live forever

The singularity has arrived

It’s do or die

The planet’s gonna fry

But when you say goodbye

It will still be there when you die

I must admit my life’s been

One long bad decision

But my jail cell’s been

Carved out with precision

So spare me the bedside manner

Who says a tumor is subtle

My kingdom for a hammer

To deliver my rebuttal

Some will say I deserve this

And ain’t karma a bitch

I’m a drag on the system

Why not make room for the rich

Christians will avert their eyes

And pray to heaven above

I say, sweet Jesus

I’ll take Medicaid over your love

I don’t know why

I even try

But I’m the only one

Who will still be there when you die

I know I disgust you

I’ve discussed you in detail

With my advisors

They call me the the last great American whale

But how thin the veil

Between loneliness and being alone

I will shuck you like an oyster

I will break your fucking bones

Let’s just skip the plot

Slash the Gordian knot

If you had a body

I say let’s step outside

If I had the courage

I’d bury myself alive

I may not live forever

But you I will survive

I’m so free

The end is nigh

I swear I’ll be

There when you die

Like a turd on a wire

With less mercy than desire

This nation’s tried in its way

To be free

To be there when I die

Oh when I die

I will not die

I will not die

With you

I will not die