Waking Up - KOJI

Waking up today

I had the sense that it was time for change

But feeling demoralized, the perception is hushed

And I’m quiet now

Waking up today

I could barely feel my face

Not jumping up out of bed, but falling instead

Because my body’s numb

Look into a mirror

Would you recognize yourself?

You’ll find sometimes you don’t

Your friends ask if you’re okay

You’re turning blue as they wait for an answer

But you won’t

No, no you won’t

I feel my insides showing out

I want medicine but no amount

Can take me away, take me away from this

I must confront this confusing mess

Mother said, «Son, always do your best

Child, child now»

I wish I listened to you then

Look into a mirror

I don’t recognize myself

I’ve found sometimes I don’t

My friends ask if I’m okay

I’m turning blue as they wait for an answer

But I won’t

No, no I won’t

I should have listened to you then

I should have listened to you then

I should have listened to you then