White Knuckles - Madchild

They love me when I’m crazy, love to feel my pain

So they sit alone and know they’re not the only ones insane

I’m perfect, a mentally blurred, disturbed serpent

A merging of murderous words that serve purpose

From fresh air, walking the dogs with birds chirping

To death stares, talking to god, it’s not working

It’s not fair, have to give it time, be patient

I’m just a spec of sand compared to all creation

From bleach blonde addict to creature of habit

Thinking in my dreams, it’s time to reach out and grab it

Down to the furniture, each detail imagined

Loft in Vancouver, Venice beach house, and cabin

In the middle of the forest with a creek, that’s serenity

Can’t wait until the day I go to sleep with no enemies

Walk around the city knowing I could be killed

From an old beef, a sociopathic’s cheap thrills

Yeah I’ll make a little money with awfully steep bills

And some awful big debts, it’s an awfully steep hill

But I’mma keep on climbing while I grind and I hustle

Fist clenched, white knuckles till my knees fuckin' buckle

Addictive personality, destructive, give me more pain

Laughing while destroying, I’m the Joker wearing war paint

With a scorpion on my thumb

I just wanna get some head, taking opiates till I’m numb

Feeling so alone, watch this orphan come undone

To a shape shifting ape lifting weights, having fun

Acid spewing speed demon, feeding on the weak

I get paid for words, literally eat from what I speak

They talk a lot of shit without even one try

While I’m delivering the sun till the rivers run dry

New found strength, so I might go forth

BAX WAR, that’s disciples of a psycho dwarf

They say I could be bigger if I just conform

But I don’t wanna be in clubs, I detest the norm

I’m a monster that’s heartless, creator of darkness

Eccentric collector with a shrine for an apartment

Writing rhymes on my Noguchi coffee table, burning incenses

They say that I’m insensitive, at least I’m intense

Harboring my agony and pain, let it unleash

Then breathe fire, pounding on my chest like I’m a dumb beast

Dapper demigod, snob, I’m a label whore

Sentences is full of savagery, it’s a crazy war

Going on inside my fuckin head, no rest for the wicked

Dog, I just want to kick it

But these twisted rhymes are racing

Will it?

Won’t stop spinning

Might be mental demented but I’m bent on winning

Clarifying that I’m verifying that I’m a terrifying scary giant

Every line I spit’s an arrow flying

Addictive personality, destructive, give me more pain

Laughing while destroying, I’m the Joker wearing war paint

With a scorpion on my thumb

I just wanna get some head, taking opiates till I’m numb

Feeling so alone, watch this orphan come undone

To a shape shifting ape lifting weights, having fun

Acid spewing speed demon, feeding on the weak

I get paid for words, literally eat from what I speak

«It was a mile long thrill ride through total darkness.»

«Some thrill.»

«Certain people said it was mind expanding.

In fact it was mind shattering.»