CALL U WHEN I NEED U - Masked Man

Call you when I need you

I don’t really need a reason

Hold you when you’re falling

But inside, I’m barely breathing

Second to the first

Making this shit worse

I hold you to the promise

But the promise ain’t worth keeping

No one on my speed dial

No one for emergencies

All this pain on me and I can’t feel a sense of urgency

They took everything from me and killed it in the first degree

Can’t find a way to show a motherfucker how they hurting me

Feels so anesthetic way

I don’t feel at all

Nobody gonna care 'til they see the final fall

Flying through the air 'til I can’t feel my palms

Ascnsion from depression, I can finally scale th walls

So much hurting on this earth and I can’t wait until it’s over

I been drowning all my hurting, it just come back when I’m sober

All these negatives too heavy and it’s weighing on my shoulders

And it’s crazy how they try and warm up to you when you colder

Try to see shit different but I only see reflections

Try to look an apology but only get deflections

Try to look for different friends I got nothing but wrong attentions

I don’t want this shit to end but I’m way past pretending