So Many Times - Mental Discipline, Endanger

Every person has a shield that covers from the crowd

Our life is a battlefield, all you need is to look around

When there’s nothing to believe

When there’s no one you can trust

Close your heart to keep this feeling inside us

Every morning I wake up

Many bad thoughts in my head

Bleeding heart wants just to stop

But I know it’s not the end

There is nothing I believe

There is no one I can trust

It’s not easy but I don’t want to give up

So many times I washed my hands

With blood of enemies and friends

But now I feel alone

And silence still surrounds me

So many times she held my hand

But I was too blind to understand

Redemption was my way

But now it lies behind me

You will ask once again

Is it possible to live…

…when there’s no one I can trust?

…when there’s nothing to believe?

You will never understand

The bitter way I live my life

There’s the only thing I know

This way keeps me alive