Post Mortem - El-P, Jean Grae, Akrobatik

This is the last chapter, bombs hit who?

Crushed what?

Over there?

Oh, my God, oh, dear

I was, hmm, I think I was, huh, going somewhere

About to pay my fare, bright glare, not quite clear

Stare blind into the light of possibilities

Think I heard the screams of those in my proximity

Or had I started thinking wishfully?

Guided by fear

I’m semi-aware, please, is anybody out there?

It was a gentle fission kiss on my block

And hot light like a baby breathing sigh in her terrain

And now my name is merely last second of brain exist

Before the final flash

Where emotion and pretty details of the life I had passed

Now my warm night in Brooklyn is ash

Falling from the snot of loosies that I choked on

Around the corner from class

Before the moments when the moon can move fast

Another summer slowly growing with the friendships

That would end with a blast

Or how the hours could so blissfully lag

She slid her tongue between my lips and I gasped

Told my dawgs and they laughed

Now we’re combining our cash at last

A pack of smokes and a flask

I hope there’s liquor with a gas by the mask

Convert to atheism, denounce god, pronounce religion dead

Faith in nothing, trace my wrists with razors

I refuse to wait for the blaze to erase my spirit

Death, faced with it, run to it, not from it

Swallow all the pills in the medicine cabinet

Chase it with a bottle of one-fifty-one, hug mommy

Head outside to smash windows and trash my hotel lobby

Rape a cripple if the time allows

I find a kid to hem up, I wish I’d done more sinnin'

Get a strap-on, run up in some women

Lay in the middle of a highway, wait for pain to hit me

Steal all I can with people lootin', screamin', «Come and get me»

Find the nearest pawn shop, biggest gun, crowded street

Blow my brains to hell and gone and let the devil come for me

What’s the chances I’d be one of the last ones left alive to see this?

The Earthcrusher came before I could even conceive a fetus

But I did go from nothing to misunderstood elitist

Who tried to tell his people to rise instead of actin' like defeatists

But what good is that?

'Cause now we all goin' to hell

Like some kid playin' in his class, out talkin' before the bell

I died believing in righteousness, but I could have indulged more

'Cause giving in to temptation don’t seem that raw no more

I heard some airline offered flights into space

I shoulda took it to see earth before they mashed up the place

I thought I’d be alone when they finally came to get me

But nobody gotta miss me, 'cause they all comin' with me

Our horizon was accessorizing, need bred more need

Best believe it’s the equation of greed

I need a new car and thus new brakes, another tune-up with lube

Whatever’s put together shall be unscrewed

In times of famine, we made more food, food made more people

It’s all explained within the cycle of evil

Would I trade it all?

Cruisin' down the highway on a bright summer day

Gazing out a plane to see the earth from miles away

Watchin' the Patriots win the Super Bowl

Grabbing that fumble from Ricky Proehl

Or my stereo, providing me with rhythm and soul, I don’t know

All I know is I feel guilt for every single thing I’ve ever bought and sold

I shoulda been in more demonstrations

Planted bombs in corporations

Murdered CEO’s and cancelled TV shows

Burned billboards and torn posters, I coulda read more

Finally, I’ll get to meet this god they left us dead for

And it’s ill, it’s power to the form of a bill

For which people killed, lied, manipulated free will

Conscience will be their crucifix, the chopping block for poppycock

And I can feel our spirits drop upon these streets I oddly walk

Enough talk, here’s my last chance to cherish a thought

My flesh is fully melted and my stomach’s in a knot

So to my love, I hated to leave you alone, pardon my zone

Passion took me places and my life was a poem

Baby, I was on my way home, about to catch a flight

Our meeting has dissolved in radiation and light

Love you gave me made me shine

You’re gorgeous with a powerful mind

You lifted my spirits and strengthened my spine

I’m at peace with my life, 'cause knowin' you was divine

You made me see eternal beauty in a world that was dyin'

Now we’re all ground by the grind, out of luck and out of line

Out of signs, and now we’re out of time