Barren - Nicole Dollanganger

curdled like milk in the summer heat,

my skin’s gone soft, my head is spoiled,

my heart’s a rabid dog trying to

put its teeth in you,

you thought you saw light but it was forest fires eating me alive,

my limbs are dead and dry,

my ribcage cradles dirt and weeds,

i’m empty inside

and i will never be able to love you,

i couldn’t if i tried,

and i will lay down next to you,

but i fear a dead body would feel warm compared to mine,

cause i’m barren on the inside,

i’m barren on the inside

you tried to make love to my empty womb,

tried to stuff me like a doll

with pieces of you,

but it all seeps from my loosened seams,

i took myself apart

and cut off my strings,

and scraped the remains from my starving bowels,

collected them into garbage piles,

to try in bags, sink in the lake,

and bury at the bottom all my sad mistakes

cause i will never be able to love you,

i couldn’t if i tried,

and i will lay down next to you,

but i fear a dead body would feel warm compared to mine,

cause i’m barren on the inside, i’m barren on the inside