Portrait - Nomrah, Conscience

I fail to comprehend the world that surrounds me

Pistols poppin' off all over cash and rap beef

Fightin' over flows, and numbers that all the crowds see

Then ignore the impact, and everything the child sees

Flexin' all the gold, you no Egyptian goddess

Shinin' with the diamonds like Rihanna in a comet

Stars all in your roof, the whip is rollin' hella cosmic

But you’ll be driven crazy if you’re shinin' ‘till you’re blinded

No more violence, I’m tired of sayin' «I'm tryin»

The sky has been subsided by the lead that’s flyin' high and

You try to justify it, there’s no hidin' actin' childish

Slide aside your pride and let your eyes accept the guidance

If the peace is truly worth it, drop your piece, it isn’t worth it

‘Fore we receive the verdict, we should really keep it urgent

To come together, and finally unite as one

Put aside the differences, escape what life’s become (yeah)

You see this world is just one giant demolition derby

Bound to crash and burn all for some mother fucking money

Rewind that line or don’t, I don’t mind cause surely

History repeats itself in time cause nobody’s learning

See people like you concern me because my vision is blurry

Have people reading shit for me but even I can see these people hurting

Begging and starving, but you’re too focused on watches

To stop and see that you lost and packaged up in a box with

Every other new artist, man the shit makes me nauseous

I see your minds on the carton ‘cause motherfucker you lost it

But nowadays, shit, I guess it’s cool to be heartless

Cool to be a piece of shit cause they gon' listen regardless

Yeah, I’m guilty of it too, consider this my catharsis

I ain’t fucking with it man, this world is driven by darkness

Heading down the wrong way, switchin lanes got me carsick

So stop and listen, if not to me, then your conscience

Shit’s crazy, man

The world’s more divided than we’ve ever been

We just need to come together and realize that we’re all one

We’re all human

It feels like the internet’s a curse and a blessing

‘Cause your friends are worldwide, you just search and connect it

But make one wrong move and you servin' a sentence

Piss the wrong person off and you’re reduced to a menace

How can I try when obstacles contrived

By my enemies are stackin' up sky-high?

I fight their vile lies to fly with bright shine

And cry if I dive in five minutes time

Tell me, when I die, will I be recognized?

Or am I set aside except to criticize?

If I let my heart rise, and speak in due time

Will you finally realize, or still be too shy?

If life was picture perfect, then I just got catfished

Went to paint a self-portrait, in hopes of retractin'

Any pain that was haunting me back in the past tense

But all it did was show me that I need more practice, yeah

You know, I think the biggest thing that bothers me

Is my own inability to be…

…to be myself

I wanna be accepted by others

But I feel like I have to do trendy things

And wear certain things to fit in

And it bleeds over into my personality

To the point that I’m forced to question

«Who is the real me?»