Tears - Odd Squad Family

This that ride into the nightlife

This that hurt feelings cry until you night night

This that therapy session to find a bright light

Suffering mental abuse won’t make you like life

I’ve contemplated many times If the purpose of my life

Was to commit my suicide I know the bullies they would love it

They would show me where the gun is

Probably laugh as I would die but ain’t giving them the last laugh

Before I went to school the knife came out my backpack

I pray to god just let me make it through my last class

Tryna make it out my struggle, no use for a fast pass

And I’m still here working at it

Looking back on life how I cope with this and manage

Long-time ago I turned to dope to numb the damage

It ain’t help, I quit cuz I’m more than just an addict

More than just a crippled, doctors wondered how I’d walk

I’ve been asking God why me since I could talk

Living this rough has turned me something far from soft

Now I preach I’m a survivor, till god turns my switch to off

It was my choice to make the best

Glass half full, life is just a perfect mess

Thankful for my life, no my pain I won’t forget

And my biggest blessing yet is that I haven’t met death

I feel like I have never felt at home

Inside my own mind, I can’t be left alone

I feel the divide between my flesh and soul

I look to the skies I hope it lets me know

Is there somebody that’s watching this by the episode

Is there somebody behind it all of my ebbs and flows

We were thrown to the fire so they just let us roast

And gave us a life that we had never chose

Since a younging knew I’m off a bit

I tried to solve em but I don’t know what my problem is

I tried bravado but I’m always lacking confidence

Unless it’s in my art I put my heart out on the carpet wit

I’m the king of overthinking things

Even in my deepest dreams, cant be at peace it seems

Can hear the screams try not to listen when the demons speak

Try to pray but I can’t even think they say the meanest things

So I doubt myself

And sometimes I wish that I could live without myself

Who needs a bully when I’m best at putting down myself

But still, they’ll push till I really go and out myself

And it’s hard for me to balance it

Still can’t drown it out but I just learned to turn it down a bit

Never did learn how to handle it

Didn’t beat it I just channeled it

Can I tell you what hurt the most as a kid?

When you look in the mirror and ask why am I like this?

I was born albino man there’s nothing I could’ve did

To make it worse you get to school and they saying the same shit

They cracking jokes some hit harder than most

You try to laugh but then tears still show

You just wanna make friends but they think you’re gross, you’ve heard it all so

much you believe it to be so

The odd one out the bunch

Everybody called me fat so I hated lunch

Everybody called me names so I picked one and ran with it

Things change like the seasons it wasn’t easy to handle it

But I did and stood on my ten I told myself you may fall but I Val to never quit

Yo eyesight ain’t good but try again and one day you’ll be as swift as the wind

But no matter how dark it gets I’ll never be afraid of the dark again

Having confidence in myself is an accomplishment

Everybody deserves a little time to vent

Realize there’s thin lines between opposites but that’s what you attract so

stay positive

They say shoot for the stars so I’m lobbing it

My lights gone shine no matter what time it is

You heard me