Everyday - Plan B

Every morning when I wake

Every morning when I wake

This is my life everyday

This is my life everyday

Wake up in the morning, notice something ain’t right

'Cus although the sun is shining, there is no light

I open up my curtains, wipe the sleep from my eyes, too tired to realise I’ve

lost my sight

Blinded by my ignorance, I prepare my self for the day, thinking this sinking

feeling will go away

As I set off on my track, the little voice in my head says «turn back,»

but when I want to turn back it’s too late

Darkness surrounds, me drowning me in sorrow, 'cus I know today will be no

different from tomorrow

Hope is quickly fading, soon I’ll be too far gone for saving, my soul will go

and leave my body hollow

And still in the face of adversity, I search for an inner strength,

try and stand firm with both fists clenched

But I can’t find my heart, it’s like the fucking thing’s deserted me,

it used to be there, this makes no sense

So I pray to a God that I’m not even sure if I believe in

To help me in my hour of needing and keep me breathing

I pray to this God that created a place called Eden

A paradise to put Adam and Eve in

But I don’t think he hears me speaking

I’m starting to weaken

Now I’m reaching for what’s fake

Poison in my body to escape

Suddenly I’m overwhelmed with optimism, my shoulders no longer feel the weight

Yeah, life feels great, but it’s fake

It’s fake 'cus I know the smile on my face is only there 'cus I’m too

intoxicated to care

Inside my soul I can’t find no hope, just a gaping hole where it used to be

there

An unmendable tear

That when I’m sober hurts more than I can bare

It just ain’t fair

And soon I’ll be back in normality

When the poison wears off and my whole bodies aching from the pain of reality

The pain of reality, starts to grab at me

Love is a fallacy and I’m staring straight at death as it tries take another

stab at me

I’m down on my knees

And I’m begging

«Someone hear me, please answer my questions?

«Why is my life just one big deep depression?

«Is this God’s way of teaching me a lesson?»

Forgive me Father for I have sinned

This is my confession

I do bad things and I don’t know why I do 'em

I try to do good deeds but people see right through 'em

I can’t ge’t close to no one, 'cus they won’t let me

How can I feel like a man if they don’t respect me?

Is that my heart I feel starting to sink?

As the more I talk, I’m starting to think

That maybe I feel this way because of the mistakes I’ve made, and it ain’t got

shit to do with no one else

I can only blame myself

It’s me who’s bad for my health

And only I can rectify what is wrong in my life if only I tried a little bit

Harder

It all comes down to a choice, what would I rather

Stay how I am

And watch the days get darker or forgive myself?

Get on with my life

And not

Look back after.