Paid in Full - Sonata Arctica

i was nowhere near ready when all it ended

so i hoped we could find a new day, cannot live without you

you gave me the chance, time and again, in vain

now my feelings for you, every tear, every smile, paid in full

break the chain, but no longer can i take the pain

it’s hard for me to love myself right now

i’ve waited, hated, blamed it all on you

needed to be strong, yet i was always too weak

so i can only blame myself for this state we are in i will take what you have for me now, if it’s not too late

did you change?

i did too.

love can grow from the last grain

it’s hard for me to love myself right now

i’ve waited, hated, blamed it all on you

i need you, less and less

every day feeds this moral decay

yet i have grown to love you even more

i fall back, and i turn another cheek

you mouth the words you’re not ready to speak

you’re scared of me now, no i never had a clue

that i’d become so much stronger than you

i will take what you have for me now, if it’s not too late

if you like, i will leave, i will not miss the last train again

it’s hard for me to love myself right now

i’ve waited, hated, blamed it all on you

it’s hard for me to love your face right now

i’m waiting, hating, needing being

me i need you less and less

every day leads us farther away

from that moment

it’s hard for me to hate myself right now

finally i understand me one day we may have a new me and you

but first i need to learn to love me too