Rest -

I read it somewhere once that if I came to You for rest that You would cure my

weary heart and forgive my heavy debt

…Is there a reason why You haven’t come to help me yet?

Is there a reason why You want me dead?

I swear my whole life is proof of this bitter concept

But I’ve done nothing to deserve this treatment that I get

There’s no joy in my soul, and the qustions I can’t answer are left

So God…

How do I mov on?

And make the past disappear?

It’s easier said than done after all those years

The faces of the countless girls I’ve quietly undressed

Leave scars on my heart and images I can’t forget

The guilt drives me crazy and it’s hard to live

And if that weren’t enough, I’m frail and I’m sick

Let alone the fact that You don’t respond to me

Your Bride pays no attention to the lost that need to see

But if there’s anything in this world that haunts my heart

It’s the choking grip of worry that is tearing me apart

I’m so uncertain, God, that there’s still a plan

Has it run off-course somehow, or is it in Your hands?

My doubt has taken over, and apathy blinds my hope

I’m a religiously-founded man with a starving child’s soul

God, if You’re there anymore, I need You to direct my steps

I need Your grace to move on;

Jesus, tell me what’s next

Wage war against everything that holds you back from Me

So light a match and watch it burn

All your dreams and desires

Take up your cross and follow Me

I will lead you forever higher

I can’t just pretend to be strong when I’m not

I’m too weak to fight this insecurity

But on the outside I’ll disguise it with pride

A pride that’s founded on the shaky ground of vanity

But You’ve known the truth from the beginning

I pray right now that You interpret my sincerity

Give me the ability to trust You with it all

I need You here with me

Give (me) us peace

Give (me) us a love that never sleeps

Let (my) our faith be contagious

Take these burdens please, and show (me) us how to finally

Run to You and never look back

The struggles that we face will never cease to exist

No matter how desperately we want simplicity

There will always be excuses and distractions

That keep us from believing in the truth of the cross

And though I’m at my weakest like never before

Though the thought of death may seem more promising than life

Despite my unfaithfulness, despite my shortcomings

You are sovereign, in control, and You live in me

So we must conquer the fear that lives inside of us

We must live and breathe with a strong sense of urgency

The church must be united as one

We must come together and function as one body

We must run to Christ together

Never again will we be alone

The grace of God is so much greater

Than anything we can accomplish on our own