Losing Control - This Providence

I can hear their song from miles away

It’s carried in the wind

Its melody is sung to me in miracles

The sun rises over the sea

When I hear their love song

I don’t understand

From out beyond the shadows

I can hear it calling me

Honestly, if I’m honest with myself

I’ve cried myself to sleep

Crying out, 'Oh God, where are you?

Can you hear my scream way up there

Through the clouds, in heaven?

Do you even care?'

And honestly if I’m honest with myself

I hate the song they sing

It’s like salt on an open wound

But I can’t get it out of my head

This melody kills me

It’s out of key and foolish

But I think I might just like it

If I could just get past my pride

I turn my head and look away

'Cause you know it hurts to see the light of day

When I hear their love song

I don’t understand

From out beyond the shadows

I can hear it calling me

Honestly, if I’m honest with myself

I’ve cried myself to sleep

Crying out, 'Oh God, where are you?

Can you hear my scream way up there

Through the clouds, in heaven?

Do you even care?'

And honestly if I’m honest with myself

I hate the song they sing

It’s like salt on an open wound

But I can’t get it out of my head

The whole world hates you

The whole world hates your song

Oh God I’m a sinner and I think I wanna sing along

The whole world hates you

The whole world hates your song

And I wanna sing

I wanna sing along

Heaven’s not so far away

I can hear its melody from here in the waiting room of hell

Well heaven’s not so far away

I can hear its melody calling me

Calling me home

Honestly, if I’m honest with myself

I’ve cried myself to sleep

Crying out, 'Oh God, where are you?

Can you hear my scream way up there

Through the clouds, in heaven?

Do you even care?'

And honestly if I’m honest with myself

I hate the song they sing

It’s like salt on an open wound

But I can’t get it out of my head

And honestly, if I’m honest with myself

I’ve cried myself to sleep

Crying out, 'Oh God, I need you

Can you hear my prayer way up there

Through the clouds, in heaven?

Do you even care?'

And honestly, I’ve never really been honest with myself

Well this melody heals my wounds

And I can’t get it out of my head