I Can't Sleep - Tom MacDonald

I’ve been running out of different ways to pass time

The devil’s work is done by idle hands, and I’ve been bored since last night

Jump into the whip and start to drive like it’s my last ride

Looking for a bridge where I can crash, see if I can fly

Hit my head against the wall till I got black eyes

Sitting on the sofa, drinking soda, watching plants die

It’s stupid, but I’m scared that I might lose it and I can’t cry

The devil smells the tears, and he been chilling here, don’t ask why

The garbage can be full and hella pizza boxes stacked high

Hit the Ativan and now I’m anxious out my damn mind

Got 80 grand and clothes and a couple chains and a rad life

But all I’m really after was happiness money can’t buy

Stressing every second to drop a record my fans like

Puking from the pressure, I’m throwing up like some gang signs

And standing on the mountain that an average man can’t climb

Waiting for an avalanche to landslide

I can’t sleep, I’m out of my head

I’m losing my mind, and no one understands, whoa

And I can’t breathe, I’m over the edge

I’m dying inside, I’m afraid how this might end, whoa

And I’m running out of ways to fight the bad thoughts I can’t stop

Cigarettes are filling up the empty cans and plant pots

I try to keep my demons locked away with chains and padlocks

They found a way to break out of the cage, and they won’t back off

Every day I call my parents: me, my mom and dad talk

I tell 'em that I’m fine, but it all changes when I hang up

There’s whiskey in the cupboard, I’ve been tryna keep my hands off

It’s calling to me every day like, «Come on, Tom, let’s have shots»

Mansion’s in my head, I hop the fence into the backyard

Looking through the windows and all the rooms that my past taunts

Filling up my laptop with last word and chat logs

There’s ashes on my mattress 'cause I smoke until I crash hard

Think I lost my mind, I’m tryna find it in these sad songs

Following my footprints, but the track stopped

Fighting with the devil, but he didn’t think I’d last long

But I ain’t backing down, I’mma stand strong

I can’t sleep, I’m out of my head

I’m losing my mind, and no one understands, whoa

And I can’t breathe, I’m over the edge

I’m dying inside, I’m afraid how this might end, whoa

My mind is racing, I’m going crazy

I wanna hide in my bed

I think that maybe something can save me

But I don’t know what that thing is

I can’t sleep, I’m out of my head

I’m losing my mind and no one understands, whoa

And I can’t breathe, I’m over the edge

I’m dying inside, I’m afraid how this might end, whoa