drugs - Eden

'Cause I had the best of the worst sides

And I had these lungs, ohh

And I had too many flashbacks

That I just let them burn

'Till my chest is on fire

And my head just won't die

I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna

I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't

'Cause I just feel so tired

Like it's move or slowly die

You say, "You ain't you when you're like this

This ain't you and you know it"

But ain't that just the point?

You don't know how to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing?

But I'm so caught below, and I'll never let you know

No, I can't tell you nothing

'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes

But still I could always be

Whatever you wanted

But not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes

And I'll say what I don't mean

Just 'cause I wanted

Or maybe I need it

Swear lying's the only rush I need

'Cause all I needed was some words to say

That all these feelings don't mean shit to me

'Cause it's all just chemicals anyway, anyway, yeah

And I got way too many routes to take

To make this all just go away

And find another heart to break

So heartless with these words I say

Just saying what I'm supposed to say

'Cause I had nothing for you

I can't love when I can't even love myself

Things I would rather be thoughts at the back of my head

But I'm addicted to hurting

And I got these lungs

And I spent too many late nights

Just thinking a hole in the earth

'Till the sky is on fire

And my head still won't die

I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna

I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't

'Cause I just feel so tired

Like I need something to come alive

She said, "You ain't you when you're like this

This ain't you, what you doing?"

And I said, "That's the point"

You don't know how to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing?

But I'm so caught below, and I'll never let you know

No, I can't tell you nothing

'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes

But still I could always be

Whatever you wanted, but not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

'Cause I'm a fucking mess inside

And I'll say what I don't mean

Just 'cause I want it

Or maybe I need it

Swear lying's the only rush I need

Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh

Yeah, oh yeah, I need it

Yeah, I need it, I need it I need it, I need it, yeah