Tearing At The Seams - Milestones

I found myself, scattered throughout

5 years of lingering self-doubt.

Trying to escape my flaws.

I couldn’t live like that anymore.

I’ve learnt to shake these feelings,

‘Cause they’re so overbearing

My thought patterns are so deceiving

I was sick of staring at the ceiling.

Never sleeping, never dreaming,

Felt like my seams were tearing.

Took so long for this web to un-weave,

I know it’s really hard to believe.

I tore myself apart, hour-by-hour,

Day by day, I couldn’t live like this anymore.

I still feel out of place, I still feel out of touch.

It’s easy to get lost, trying to find yourself,

And I’m almost found, but not yet.

‘Cause back then it felt like,

This life was a canvas, and my brush wouldn’t make a mark.

‘Cause back then it felt like,

This life was a match, and I just couldn’t trigger the spark.

I’ll keep screaming my lungs out

To express what I feel and how I felt.

Each time my voice gives out,

I’m one step closer to finding myself.