PLAGUE - Ryan Oakes

Please save me

Don’t let my anxiety erase me

All my demons coming out to face me

I keep on running never take me

This daydream

It plagues me

Everything is blurry and it’s hazy

The sun is shining, everything is shady

it changed me

Look, I been getting high to get above all the clouds

That still surround me even when I walk on the ground

The blood is rushing to my head like I’m upside down

It’s straight throbbing, feel like it just took eight rounds

My ears ringing in the silence, they won’t turn down

When it gets quiet, that’s when everything gets too loud

They say that home is where the heart is, I still skip town

'Cause every time I get too close but I feel pinned down

Dissociation, oh it’s time to come and fuck up my memory

At least I went and forgot the fucked up things people said to me

I been locked inside my head for what feels like it’s a century

Given out in every other extremity

I’m losing the fight now

I need a light now

I’m outta energy

And it’s cutting the lights out

I need a lighthouse

I’m scared for my life now

I’m off the deep end

And I’m worried I might drown

Please save me

Don’t let my anxiety erase me

All my demons coming out to face me

I keep on running never take me

This daydream

It plagues me

Everything is blurry and it’s hazy

The sun is shining, everything is shady

it changed me

The present is a gift and I wish that it was air

But I’ve been stuck inside the past and all my older affairs

It’s that I worry 'bout the future while I’m shooting the flairs

And then the stress calls to see if anybody really cares

I’m sick as fuck of waking up and going through all the motions

It’s getting harder to be happy, I don’t show no emotion

I wonder what happened to me, I used to live in the moment

Now I’m distracted by the fact that I’m still hopeless and broken

I’m spending nights inside a room, I’m wide awake with the shapes

I’m thinking 'bout my insecurities and shit that it takes

I tell myself that I’m a martyr and this shit is my fate

'Cause I go through heaven at the gates, oh

I’m losing the fight now

I need a light now

I’m outta energy

And it’s cutting the lights out

I need a lighthouse

I’m scared for my life now

I’m off the deep end

And I’m worried I might drown

Please save me

Don’t let my anxiety erase me

All my demons coming out to face me

I keep on running never take me

This daydream

It plagues me

Everything is blurry and it’s hazy

The sun is shining, everything is shady

it changed me